Well, hello there sunshine.

WOW ! It's been almost 2 months since I've blogged last. I apologize for the inconsistency with this. I've been incredibly busy anticipating summer ..


okay, so my dad totally fucking ruined my mood to blog.
this will be continued later, hopefully.

TA-TA loves <3

Vanity is Fair

Today was better than most typical Mondays. Surprisingly. I laughed a lot, which always makes my days. I figured, hopefully I can get a summer job at Forever 21. I really think I'll enjoy it. What I'll enjoy most of all is the employee discount.

So, I keep getting assaulted by these persistent annoying huggers. They never leave me alone. I can't walk to get lunch without being accosted by these guys. I mean, it's all in good fun but they always stop me if I'm rushing somewhere. They're funny, but sometimes I need to be somewhere & it would really be lovely if I wasn't hassled for five minutes.


I need a guy.
I need money.
I need good grades.
I need new clothes.
I need a job.
I need change.


This week is going to be a good one. I can feel it in my bones (:

HOPEFULLY I'M NOT PROVEN WRONG.

-L.

Forrest Gump

Today, since I decided to stay home & be lazy, I decided to watch Forrest Gump. I've seen parts of it before but I haven't ever watched it from beginning to end. & I did. And I think that was hardest I've ever cried at a movie. I cried for like 10 minutes. It's a really, really, really good movie.

It touched my heart.

It's my favorite movie now. Then, Under the Tuscan Sun.
Go watch them. I recommend it!

Au revoir,
-L.

Beautiful Nightmares

Well, tonight has been absolutely terrible for a Friday. I really regret not going out when I had the chance & not deciding to stay at my dad's.


I'm full of endless complaints tonight so I caution you. My mood is not that of a good one.

So, today was ordinary. Nothing special. All my days are infinitely ordinary. I need a change. I need to shake things up. I don't have truly happy days anymore & that saddens me. God. How depressing.


-L.

You're Love is Nothing I Can't Fight

So, today I was listening to one of Lady Gaga's songs, "Paper Gangsta" and a lyric came up that I happened to like. (I'm one of those people that uses lyrics to desrcibe my life. Lame lame lame)

It went: "I'm looking for love not an empty page full of stuff that means nothing."

& I was ABOUT to put it on my myspace, or twitter it, until I really thought about the meaning of it. I analyzed it. I sat there pondering. Then, I was like huh? I'm not looking for love. That's ridic.


See, I always laugh at people who are my age. And if they're having a deep conversation with me & we're discussing boys and such, if they so much as mention the three-syllable F word: Forever- I laugh in their face & walk away. Okay, well maybe not so harshly. But in my head that's how the said event would go down.

For example, I used to be really close with a friend. now, we became close in about sixth grade until maybe eighth. We always talked though and never really lost touch, we just kind of grew apart. And maybe it was more like I grew maturer and she eventually slowly progressed into her "teen" phases (ew, I hate referring to myself as a teen.) But, one day she met a guy. The same day, he asked her out.
"Will you go out with me?"
"Yes" Hug, hug, kiss, kiss. Blech, don't you just hate that corny way of asking someone out? It seems so juvenile. Like to make it official you have to utter those words. I would like my next relationship to be a slow progression into which we mutually UNDERSTAND that we're in a relationship. We don't have to officially say we're "together".

Anyways, my old friend became on the verge of obsession with this boy. He was an asshole in my opinion. And just plain grungy & disgusting. Desperately needed lesson 101: Personal Hygiene. Yet, she still was infatuated. Every myspace status she posted would always be something like "miss my baby. cant wait to see him friday." and her mood would be "miss him/luved" Yep, she spelled love like that. & DON'T GET ME WRONG! I adore my friend, even though she is still a tad bit immature, but hey everyone gets older on their own time. But then you would go to her page & it would be ALL about her boyfriend and how they were going to stay together FOREVER & EVER. Insert gag face---->

& of course, there are many similar stories like this one. They all ended. Needless to say, my friend's boyfriend broke up with her after she had practically built her life around him at the age of fifteen. I have to give the relationship props though. It lasted 9 months which is a hell of a lot longer than any of my relationships. Although, for two of those months her boyfriend was on that "camping trip"- explanation below.

I guess my point is, if you're still young (& I'll let it be up to you to interpret what age young is to you) don't get all hot & heavy. Don't search for love. Trust me, in this day and age I highly doubt you'll be able to find it at this age. That's my word of advice, which many rarely ever receive.


However, if you decide to ignore my wise words: Keep on searching by all means. Who am I to tell you what to do ? But if this boy goes on a "camping trip" for two months where he gets no cell phone or internet access therefore he can not contact you for said two months, I can tell you right now that's not your "love" so I would advise you to keep it pushin'.


Search or don't (I know I'm not),
-L.

In Your Brown Eyes

I'm slowly realizing so many things that have slipped past my immediate attention.



I'm going to be nicer from now on. Realization has hit hard.


-L.

Let's Go See The Killers & Make out in the Bleachers

So, today started off as your typical horrible Monday. I woke up with a sore throat fearing I had caught the Swine Flu. Ahhh! Attack of the pandemic. But thankfully, it didn't last all morning. Then, I managed to forget my cell phone at home for the first time in almost a year. It then dawned on me how much I rely on my cell phone because I became extremely irritable, which only worsened my sore throat. I went to school, late as always. Then I sat through boring English. Yes, Lord of the Flies is uninteresting to me. So sue me. I left school early then went & volunteered, which is always nice. It lets me concentrate on something not really important and allows me to calm down and just focus on whatever task I'm supposed to do. Plus, Mrs. Smith is just an absolute sweetheart. I can't believe how terrible I was in her class in eighth grade, haha. She asked me to help her with the Musical Review. It will be nice to finally get some artistic activity in my academic-filled schedule. It's been a while. So we're going to co-write the script together. Fun, fun!

I don't believe I've mentioned my promise to Clarissa to go running every other day each week so we can finally become fit again. Yes. it's happened like once. Something always comes up between the two of us. We have much busier schedules than we realized. But, tomorrow we're definitely going running again. I actually like it too. My only problem is I'm always so hungry and Skyler told me in order to be a good, athletic runner you mustn't eat a lot after you run. So, of course, after the first time we ran I was famished & we "ran" to Wendy's and ordered two cheeseburgers, fries, and a baked potato. Oh, and also a chocolate freezie. Haha. Then we ran back & scarfed it down like the fat children that we are. Hahaha (=

So, tomorrow is STAR testing and I can't really say I'm looking forward to it. But, I must get a good nights sleep because my grades are currently crap so I have to accel in every other way I can.


Bon voyage my loves !

xoxox,
-L.